He didn’t come in. Just stood there, looking at me.
Then he pulled something from his pocket–a tiny baby rattle, barely bigger than his palm.
saw this at the mall today. I thought our baby would’ve liked it.“[]
That one sentence shattered all the strength I had left. []
I took the rattle and slammed the door strat, locking it behind me. []
Then I slid down to the floor and cried without making a sound. ||
Why is it that people only realize they love something after they’ve lost t
Why does he give me the faintest glimmer of hope right when I’ve finally decided to let po? |
The rattle slipped from my hand and hit the floor with a soft single.
but there all nicht.
The next morning I left right on time.[
As soon as I got in the car, my phone rang–it was the hospital.
They said nd left behind the miscarriage report and needed to come pick it up.
I never had the courage to opra it before. I’d showed it aside like an ostrich hiding its head.
Like if I didn’t look at it, none of it really happened. []
nut today, it was time to face the truth.
At 9 am, Cassian was late.
He looked like he hadn’t slept all night–his eyes bloodshot and hollow,
When he saw me, disappointment flickered across his face.
“I thought… maybe you wouldn’t show.” [
1 didist answer, just walked past him and into the building. []
How could not show up? ||
We’d both waited too long for this day.
Right before signing Caustan hesitated
Pen in hand, frozen.
The clerk gave a sympathetic smile.
“If the gentleman isn’t sure, maybe it’s better to wait” |
J
gave a cold laugh.
If he wasn’t sure, he wouldn’t have asked for a divorce a hundred damn times.
Captan turned to me and whispered. ||
“Seraphins, once the wedding’s over we’ll get back together, okay?” ||
I nodded, saying nothing. I
He’d lied to me so ma
many t
This time. I’d tie to him.
When the divorce papers were in hand. Cassian’s heart pounded. ||
Something felt wrong
Like he’d just lost something he’d never get back.
We walked outside. Elowen was already there.
She wore a bright yellow sundreas–no trace of illness anywhere,
I turned my head toward Cassian. ||
“She’s waiting
He gave an awkward “yeah,” but didn’t look happy to see her. [
Bowen walked over, all smiles, and polled a wedding invite from her purse. []
“Seraphina, Cassian and I talked about it“||
“we’d still love for you and the baby to come to the wedding
This is for you.”
This
I almost told her there wasn’t a baby anymore. That I wouldn’t be attending.
But then I saw the nervous twitch in Cassian’s face. |
Whatever.
We’re divorced now. What’s the point of saying anything? |
1 shook my head and started to walk away.
Then–bang!
A couple bumped into me, and my bag spilled open.
Cassian’s eyes widened in panic. He rushed to my side.
“Are you okay? Does your stomach hurt? is the baby–||
His words cut off.
The pian s
man standing beside us had picked up a piece of paper from the ground. |
The miscarriage report
