Chapter 6
Hospitals always smelled like disinfectant.
In a place where people lived and died every day, nothing really felt permanent |
Cassian stood
od there, sympathy creeping into his heart []
Dowen looked fragile, like she was fading.||
She couldn’t see a thing, but she felt it—||
Something inside her was slipping away
She opened her eyes slowly
The yellowed ceiling above her stared back, cold and silent
“Cassian
Thank God, he was still there.
ands that
udnt let go yet ||
The hands that held her hadn’t let y
This was what she fought for-
And
now that she had it. It scared her.
Tears shimmered in her eye.
“If you weren’t here, Cassian_ ||
Would they have just left me on the
me on the street?”
She gripped his hand tighter.]
I’m scared
I’m scared I’ll wake up and you’ll be gone. [
I’m ad this pain will never end and 111 have to carry it alone
Her voice started to blur in his ears.]
“Don’t leave me..]]
A pause
Her voice was softer now, almost fading
“Just say like you always did Pleaser
But this time, he didn’t answer.
“C?
He blinked, pulled back to the present.
Ti surry Dlowes
I’ll come back, I promise.“{
He stepped out of the room.
Behand him, her voice kept
voice kept calling his name
Over and over again ||
I
Maybe
Maybe Seraphina once called for him like that, too.
Only she would’ve done it in silence
She wouldve never let anyone see her broken
Cassian tweřil back to the county office]
Teamed the crowd with desperate eyes||
But she was gone
Prople stood in pairs–smiling, crying, holding hands||
Only Cassian stood alone, lost in the crowd!]
If the ara of prople had a sound. ||
His ears would be filled with nothing i
Where I go, no one else g
gets to decide
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The old me–the one who hesitated, who begged-
She deserved to be locked away as a warning.
I want live under somne else’s thumb ever again
Trendam or nothing
My baby’s gone now. [
There’s nothing left holding me back
When I got home, everything looked the same
But the memories felt heavier than ever.
Like a mountain pressing down on my chest.||
All those tears and whispered regrets were still chasing me.]]
I splashed cold water on my fare.
The fog started to dear
This place held too much pain
Time to go.
I grabbed my suitcase and started packing ||
If I had time to
ay
I had time to see the world||
The Tower of London.
The catedrals Monet pativted.
Everything I dreamed about as a kid.[
Anything was better dan sitting here drowning in old wounds
I’d leave behind everything that still haunted me
Once I saw the world, all of this-
ind just be a blur in the rearview mirror.]]
At the door, 1 barned back for one last look
The couch
The chairs.
The table where we used to sit.
And finally felt it ||
Relief
“Goodbye,” I whispered. []
To everything that used to be
“Don’t
